Dear Birthmother: our birthmother letter

It’s done. Our letter is pending final approval. Within a couple of weeks Thor and I should be in the book. Writing this letter was much harder than I had expected. How do you show a potential birth mom that you’ll love her child like it came from your body, unconditionally, and with everything you have? I think I’ve done it. Our letter is on our website at www.schrockfamily.com.

Kassie is due any day. She says she wants me in the delivery room. I expect this will be hard on me. The financial stress of adoption is catching up to me. Not only do we have to come up with another $9,000 but also enough money to keep the company running while Thor and I are gone to get the baby. The company never does that well when we’re gone so we’re planning ahead. Thor will make it work, he’s good at that but right now it’s my biggest stress.

A New Year

The last week was a nightmare. I was in and out of the hospital for “heartburn” which turned out to be my gallbladder acting up. I’m going “low-fat” in hopes of avoiding surgery.

I was supposed to sing “Amazing Grace” as per my Grandpa’s request but I couldn’t drag my sick ass out of bed and all the way to Illinois. I missed the funeral and I’m crushed.

I needed to grieve with my family and I’m still devastated. Instead they called and told me how nice the funeral was…it just keeps getting worse. I had hoped he would hold my little one in his arms before he died. I look through old pictures and I miss him.