This last week has been a mess. Thor had some health problems that are manageable but scared the crap out of me. I pissed off a bunch of people with my blog (unintentionally, and really it’s the intent that matters). The birthmom in Florida did not place. It was truly heartbreaking to think about this little boy (whom she didn’t see or touch for days) going without a loving home. I honestly think had she not put it off she would have been more comfortable with her decision.

We’ve also had another BM from Georgia who contacted us through the IAC office. We’ve talked with her a couple of times and she seems nice enough. But we have had some concerns about her situation. Today we found out she needs a good amount of financial assistance. The IAC asked us to make our decision soon….and given the circumstances we plan to tell them we can’t match. It’s really difficult to say no but when you’re talking about this much money with a woman I’m honestly not that comfortable with, they’re just no choice. My gut is screaming don’t do it…the last time my gut was yelling I ignored it and ended up broken unhearted from a match that shouldn’t have happened.

While this decision has been tough Thor and I are actually feeling quite good about it! We’re confident the right situation will come along and we will have our family soon.