We made it to Indianapolis! Last night the stress of adoption caught up to Techie. I’ve thrown myself into the process and worked through a lot of my grief, but he’s been busy with the company. Anger, grief, and questions stirred by excitement are too much and he erupted in the car on the way to the hotel. I answered a lot of his questions and he seems settled now.

It’s our first morning in Indianapolis for the IAC seminar. I’m so nervous and excited. The IAC office is cool. The walls are covered in pictures of smiling prospective parents, and chubby faced babies of successful adoptions. This can work…I’m ready to learn.

We had an awesome day. I’m on some kind of high I swear! There are only three other couples at the seminar, we’re all so different but in some strange way the same. You can almost smell the pain of infertility in the room. Techie was, of course, the class clown. Birth moms are going to love him, he lights up the room and when people talk to him they always walk away feeling good. We learned about all the paperwork, home studies, and talked about important adoption issues like trans-racial adoption and drug use. Tina, our adoption counselor, is nice and comforting. They send us home with a big bag of stuff, which of course makes me very happy.

We spent the night being Indianapolis tourists. We ate at this crappy steakhouse but didn’t even care because we were so busy talking about all the things that we learned and our plans to build a family. Tonight we actually feel like we could have a baby! We’ve been pouring over the materials they gave us, and I’m already reading the required books. Tomorrow we get to meet actual adoptive parents. Can’t wait to go back to IAC.